I feel sorta guilty truth be told. After I found out he was cheating, I began the process of letting go right away. After I found out that it was so much worse that just that girl, that it was years and years of a hidden life, I was bent on remembering everything he confessed so I could hate him. I couldn't look at him, I felt sick if he even came near me. I wanted that to last, I wanted him to stay repulsive. Even had a hard time looking at my children, they look so much like him. The last thing in the world I wanted was to hold on to him, any good memory of him, anything at all to do with him. My prayers (when I started to pray again) were more like Lord please I need money to start over with my kids. Definitely not Lord please save this marriage.
I had let him go a hundred different ways.
God never let him go. He helped us both, and was working on stuff I couldn't see.
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
There is surely a future hope for you, and your hope will not be cut off. (Proverbs 23:18)
If you are in a spot of no hope please remember God loves you. He is working on stuff you cant see right now.
I had let go of all my hope, my Father never did.
And I thank Him for it every day.